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Nov. 5th, 2005 08:46 pmI'm kind of enamored by the idea of Snape/ Narcissa at the moment (even though I think Snape/ Lucius might be my OTP). Like, maybe Snape joined the Death Eaters to get closer to Narcissa, not in a creepy stalkerish way, but just because she was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen and even if he couldn't be with her he could be near her.
But then she married Lucius, and Snape has always kind of admired Lucius, because he's older and pureblooded and a True Believer, without being obnoxious about it the way Bellatrix is. And suddenly life isn't worth living for Snape, and the most suicidal stupid thing he can think of doing is going and confessing to Dumbledore and being Put Out Of His Misery. And making Narcissa sorry, too. Because Narcissa is not the most dedicated of Death Eaters, so she'll secretly admire his having the courage of his convictions and Being Martyred, or something. And also when you're twenty and miserable you make bad decisions--because when you write Snape and Lucius and Narcissa--really when you write most of these characters, you have to remember just how young they are.
But somehow Dumbledore tricks Snape into swearing an Unbreakable Vow--Snape thinks it won't matter, since he's going to be Kissed anyway. But instead Dumbledore demands that Snape be a spy, and Snape has to teach Potions, even though he really loves Dark Arts, and spy and try not to get the Malfoys in trouble because even though he hates the idea of Narcissa being married to Lucius he can't bear the thought of her dying or in Azkaban.
But then he finds out Narcissa is pregnant with Draco, and that's it, Snape's last hope is dead, and he throws himself into his role, and he almost starts to believe it himself. And before he can change his mind, Shit Happens, and the war ends. And he testifies for Lucius Malfoy, feeling all kinds of magnanimous, and he teaches his classes. And it isn't much of a life, but he tells himself Dumbledore's starting to trust him, and he tells himself it's all more than he deserves, and ten more years go by.
And then, of course, Harry Potter. And Snape starts to question his allegiance, starts to wish there were Take Backs for Unbreakable Vows, but of course there aren't. And Lucius gets put in prison, and Narcissa comes to him and begs on her knees. It would have taken a better man than Snape to turn away.
And a Snape/ Narcissa soundtrack, courtesy of yousend it:
Iron & Wine, History of Lovers
The Libertines, Tell The King
Belle & Sebastian, I Fought In A War
Death Cab for Cutie, I Will Follow You Into the Dark
The Clash, Something About England
But then she married Lucius, and Snape has always kind of admired Lucius, because he's older and pureblooded and a True Believer, without being obnoxious about it the way Bellatrix is. And suddenly life isn't worth living for Snape, and the most suicidal stupid thing he can think of doing is going and confessing to Dumbledore and being Put Out Of His Misery. And making Narcissa sorry, too. Because Narcissa is not the most dedicated of Death Eaters, so she'll secretly admire his having the courage of his convictions and Being Martyred, or something. And also when you're twenty and miserable you make bad decisions--because when you write Snape and Lucius and Narcissa--really when you write most of these characters, you have to remember just how young they are.
But somehow Dumbledore tricks Snape into swearing an Unbreakable Vow--Snape thinks it won't matter, since he's going to be Kissed anyway. But instead Dumbledore demands that Snape be a spy, and Snape has to teach Potions, even though he really loves Dark Arts, and spy and try not to get the Malfoys in trouble because even though he hates the idea of Narcissa being married to Lucius he can't bear the thought of her dying or in Azkaban.
But then he finds out Narcissa is pregnant with Draco, and that's it, Snape's last hope is dead, and he throws himself into his role, and he almost starts to believe it himself. And before he can change his mind, Shit Happens, and the war ends. And he testifies for Lucius Malfoy, feeling all kinds of magnanimous, and he teaches his classes. And it isn't much of a life, but he tells himself Dumbledore's starting to trust him, and he tells himself it's all more than he deserves, and ten more years go by.
And then, of course, Harry Potter. And Snape starts to question his allegiance, starts to wish there were Take Backs for Unbreakable Vows, but of course there aren't. And Lucius gets put in prison, and Narcissa comes to him and begs on her knees. It would have taken a better man than Snape to turn away.
And a Snape/ Narcissa soundtrack, courtesy of yousend it:
Iron & Wine, History of Lovers
The Libertines, Tell The King
Belle & Sebastian, I Fought In A War
Death Cab for Cutie, I Will Follow You Into the Dark
The Clash, Something About England
